It happens to everyone.
It hit me hard this month.
As much as I know that disappointment is something we all have to deal with at some point. There are times when it just crushes you, a little bit more than you think you can cope with. Sometimes its the amount of disappointment you receive, other times it’s how deep and heavy it cuts you.
When things have happened to me in the past, I’ve switched off. I withdraw from the situation. Not able to vocalise why something has hurt me. Recently I seem to have found my voice. Weirdly though, I don’t think it has helped me. Just left me going over and over what was said, promises made. The past present and future whirling in my head. For what its worth I know I’m not perfect, but I’m honest and I try to be a good and caring person, I really do.
I didn’t sleep more than a couple of hours last night, my brain was/is pounding. I know whats around the corner I can feel it coming. The cycle about to start again.
When will I learn?